This video is from a Pregnancy Resource Center down in L.A. that I've become friends with. Back in October, some coworkeder and I visited, the Watts area of L.A. to see how they run their mobile unit. Their director, the guy on the video, has been so helpful in assisting us in getting our mobile unit ready. Very soon, our own mobile unit will be out in the rural areas around us! If you want to see a great video that shows what really goes on in a mobile ultrasound unit, watch this video! Its pretty freakin' cool. Can you see why I love my job?
I think that one of the most beautiful gifts God has given us on this earth is the gift of music. Music speaks to my heart in ways that regular words without a melody can. I keep hearing about this song "I Will Carry You" by Selah. All along, I've thought it was a different song that what it really is, so I didn't bother to listen to it or look up the words. Tonight, after reading a friend's blog, I decided, "Ok, what is this song?!"
I knew that one of the members of the Christian group, Selah, had lost a baby. His wife carried their daughter, Audrey Caroline, despite a fatal diagnosis during pregnancy. In fact, I follow HER BLOG (and you should too!). Her blog was the first one I found of someone who had continued a pregnancy after a terrible diagnosis. So for the first time, I listened to this song. Oh my. I know that Selah is technically "singing" this song, but friends, Jesus is singing this song over me. You have to go listen to it. I couldn't find a link to just the song, so I am putting this video on here... it is actually a video made for Audrey Caroline. I'll put the words below it, too so you can follow along... it is absolutely stunning. Oh! And one more thing, its hard to understand at the beginning, but the verse recited by the kids at the end is none other than my favorite verse, Romans 15:13. You may remember that I've written about the meaning this verse has in my life about only, oh... a million times or so. (HERE HERE and HERE just to name a few)
I Will Carry You by Selah
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?People say that I am brave but i'm not
Truth is i'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To carry you
Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says
i've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One who's chosen Me
To carry you
Another song I heard tonight was "Voice of Truth" from Casting Crowns. Unlike "I Will Carry You", I have heard this song all the time on the radio. But tonight, for some reason, as it was playing on the radio, it just sung directly to my heart. If you Google "Voice of Truth", the first link that pops up should be lala.com, from which you can play the song. There are several lines in the song that I just love, but the ones I cling to are in the chorus...There are so many thoughts that run through my head each day. One of the biggest thoughts in my head is fear... I am so fearful of the near future... I don't know what it looks like, how it is going to happen, or how much it is going to hurt. So much fear. But like this song reminds me, and Jesus tells me over and over in his Word... "Do not be afraid!" I need to remember to choose to listen to the voice of truth.... the voice of truth that tells me this is for HIS glory. Its not about me, my pain, my comfort... its for the glory of the kingdom. The bridge in the songs says
the voice of truth, tells me a different story, the voice of truth says 'do not be afraid', the voice of truth says 'this is for my glory', out of all the voices calling out to me, I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
"I will soar with the wings of eagles when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me..."So that is what I need to remember to do... listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me. But first I have to STOP to listen... stop the thoughts in my head, stop giving footholds to fear, and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me.
What does his singing sound like? Here's just a taste of the melodies he's written for me...
For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. (Isaiah 41:13) Moses answered the people, "Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again." (Exodus 14:13) Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6) For God gave us not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7) The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1) Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)
So January seems like "deep clean" month in bloggy land. I wish I could say I had the time and determination to get in and really deep clean stuff, but all I really have is the desire to do it. Not the energy, time or real interest. ha! BUT, I have started a list of deep cleaning things that I want to do! That's a start right?! So here's a peek at just some of the things I want/need to really tackle around the house, more so than just our daily or weekly cleaning stuff....
* Clean fan
* Dust all the surfaces
Master Bedroom:
* Clean out the following drawers
* Shey's Bedside table
* Sean's Bedside table
* Top left and right dresser drawers
* All the bathroom drawers
* Organize Closet shelves
* Purge closet!!!
* Organize jewelry (again)
* Clean ceiling fan
Kitchen:
* Get rid of all appliances we don't use
* Organize pantry (again)
* Clean out junk drawer
Living Room & Dining Room:
* Paint mantel
* Decorate mantel
* Find new art for wall beside TV
* Relocate bookshelf to... somewhere?
Guest Bedroom:
* Clean out closet
* Get rid of junk in there!
Office:
* Relocate bookshelves to...? (Bedroom? Dining room?)
* Put Full bed back in room
* Purge Craft Closet
* File 2009 papers
Garage:
* Sigh... not even going to think about this one right now!
Other Stuff:
* Finish wall lettering for entry way
* Install baseboards
* Install transition strips for wood flooring
* Clean out front hall closet (get rid of stuff!)
So, as you can see, I have quite a list of things that I want to do. They're not necessarily things that HAVE to be done, but I am really trying to reduce clutter. I have so much stuff that I don't use anymore that I really need to just give away. So.... we'll see how these tasks go! We did actually accomplish one or two of the items today... Sean cleaned the fan in our living room! Man, it was bad! I think I will breathe a little bit easier now.... He also cleaned out his bedside table drawer! Thanks honey!
Have I also mentioned that I love my crock pots? I got a great, EASY chicken taco recipe from Holly Furtick over at The Preacher's Wife... It is cooking right now and smells INCREDIBLE. And it is seriously the easiest crock pot meal I have made yet! Here it is:
Chicken Tacos:
2-3 frozen chicken breasts (I only had the frozen chicken tenders... I used about7 of those)
1 can Rotel (or small can salsa)
1 can black beans
1 can corn
1 packet of taco seasoning.
Dump it all in your crock pot first thing in the morning. Frozen chicken and all! Cook on low for 8-10 hours. (Mine has been in about 7 hours and looks close to done) Shred chicken at some point in the afternoon, then let finish cooking until you are ready to eat. Wrap in whole wheat soft tortillas and serve with whatever else you like... salsa, sour cream, guac, etc. I CANNOT wait for dinner!
PS- I've added a couple new posts over on our Whitney's blog... :-) CLICK HERE.
I am blessed to have the greatest best friend a girl could have. Words cannot adequately express the level to which my best friend, Tracy, means the world to me. I've written many times about my friends from "Aardvark." Aardvark is not a city (hehe), but a place where a handful of us once worked. We actually worked for Tracy and her husband, Jim, who owned the store. Well, we all grew up, and eventually Tracy & Jim moved on to new business ventures, but our friendship has remained and deepend through the years. Tracy and I are pretty much cut from the same cloth... two peas in a pod... what laffy is to taffy... sisters from another... um... mister? Anyways, you get the picture. :-) We're BFFs... we love almost all the same stuff..... Britney, karaoke, Dexter, award show season, 90210, rag mags, old timey photos, jello shots & drag shows and everything that is VEGAS. We hate a lot of the same stuff too... roller coasters, gross movies, camping and hotels without room service. The only things we don't agree on are Michael Jackson, Elton John, sushi and Steven Tyler. I'd say we're a pretty good fit.
We've weathered a lot of storms together and raised a lot of hell. We've taken fabulous trips (Dallas! Vegas! San Fran! Vegas!) and made some pretty awesome memories. But my favorite memory with my best friend will for always be the day that we both found out we were pregnant! I know that Tracy feels my sadness and pain almost as much as I do... after all, she is losing a 'niece', a best friend for her precious little girl, Isabella. Through all of our pain and trials at this time, Tracy is always there for me... even though she's 1500 miles away in Oklahoma. If she wasn't just as very pregnant as I am, I know she would be here on the next flight out. Her love, support, tears and joy mean the world to me. I am SO greatful for her. And over the years, as I watch her daughter grow, I will of course think of Whitney. I'll miss her and wish that she and Izzy could play together, celebrate birthdays together, and have slumber parties and sing karaoke just like T and me. But more than that, I will look at Izzy and remember the JOY that I had on the day we both found out we were pregnant. I will look at Izzy and be thankful for her life, her health and the love she gets from her mamma.
We still have a lot of great years ahead of us... who knows where the next 10 years will take us... Europe?! the Beach? a cruise?! Sorry if this got a little mushy, i just had to let it be known to the world how thankful I am for my BFF. Now if only I could find a way to move us back to Tulsa....
The top pic is us in Vegas working at the World Championship Fantasy Football draft. It was pretty cool. Other pics, clockwise from the top left, $8 steaks at 3 a.m. in Vegas, Fun on the riverwalk in tulsa, We love crabs, More crabshock with the boys. :-)
I follow quite a few adoption blogs, and so many of them have been commenting on the tragic conditions in Haiti. Just before the earthquake, there were numerous children waiting to be adopted... waiting to be welcomed into their forever families. With the earthquake, things have undoubtedly become more complicated and delays in getting these children home keep piling up. My heart breaks for the adoptive families, for the children who are so close to knowing the love of two parents consistently, and especially for the hundreds and thousands of children who are just newly orphaned because of the tragedy. Its easy to get fed-up and angry at all the red tape that is preventing children from being adopted in the midst of such tragedy. Its easy to think that we have a good solution for finding homes for these children. When I think of children just waiting to be adopted, needing love, needing a home, shelter, support and stability, it is hard to understand all the waiting and paperwork and background checks and interviews that are involved. I read on someone's blog that the typical length of a single adoption in Haiti takes 4-5 years. Can you believe that?
And now the country is going to be facing a new epidemic of orphans. As frustrating as the red tape and the exhaustive process, I am appreciative of those who are truly trying to protect the best interest of these children. As I'm sure you've seen on the news, people in Haiti have had to resort to mass graves in order to keep diseases at bay. Hundreds of bodies are dumped into countless holes as graves. All nameless. No documentation of who is who, where they were found... nothing. No identification. Its just the reality of having to live among the dead in the midst of such a disaster. But no identification means a lack of closure for thousands... children who were separated from their parents during the quake have no idea if their parent is alive or dead. No word of relatives who may have survived. So how is anyone in Haiti to really know which child is indeed a new orphan, and which child has parents looking for him or her? As much as it breaks my heart to think of all the children who have lost their mother or father, it breaks my heart just as much at the thought of us Americans sweeping in to evacuate all the kids who don't know where their parents are. Because the truth is, there are still thousands who have yet to be reunited. That is just one of the reasons for the delay, but in my mind, it is actually worth the waiting, the background checks, the seeking out, etc.
I like to believe that the majority of the world is really good at heart. THat those traveling to Haiti are indeed there to rescue and give aid to those who are in distress. But the reality of our fallen world is that not everyone is good at heart. I just read this article about sex trafficing and the way it increases when natural disasters occur.... I had never thought of this before. I really would encourage you to go READ THIS ARTICLE. It breaks my heart. It makes me want to jump on a plane right now to go protect those little ones. It enfuriates me. It honestly makes me shake with anger. I don't know what the logistical answer is in restoring Haiti, restoring families, restoring health and most of all, hope. God is ultimately in control, and I am just praying that he will place people in power who are able to recognize the increased threat to the children and women of Haiti. And as frustrating as it is to know that there is so much red tape that seems to be preventing GOOD from happening, I have to remember that the regulations are also preventing a mass of BAD from happening, too. This article enlightened me to a new way to pray, a specific area to lift before our father, and I pray that you will join me in lifting that up as well.
One other thought... I caught the tail end of Oprah's show yesterday, all about Haiti. One of the guys she had on there said at the very close of the show, "Haiti doesn't need any more photo ops. Haiti needs people to go get their hands dirty helping. So put down your camera and get out of the way or help." (I'm kinda paraphrasing, but you get the jist.) I couldn't agree more. We know its bad. The people are hurting. So why is it that so many reporters can get into the worst spots, but health workers and aid trucks can't?
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
Psalm 46:1-3
And now the country is going to be facing a new epidemic of orphans. As frustrating as the red tape and the exhaustive process, I am appreciative of those who are truly trying to protect the best interest of these children. As I'm sure you've seen on the news, people in Haiti have had to resort to mass graves in order to keep diseases at bay. Hundreds of bodies are dumped into countless holes as graves. All nameless. No documentation of who is who, where they were found... nothing. No identification. Its just the reality of having to live among the dead in the midst of such a disaster. But no identification means a lack of closure for thousands... children who were separated from their parents during the quake have no idea if their parent is alive or dead. No word of relatives who may have survived. So how is anyone in Haiti to really know which child is indeed a new orphan, and which child has parents looking for him or her? As much as it breaks my heart to think of all the children who have lost their mother or father, it breaks my heart just as much at the thought of us Americans sweeping in to evacuate all the kids who don't know where their parents are. Because the truth is, there are still thousands who have yet to be reunited. That is just one of the reasons for the delay, but in my mind, it is actually worth the waiting, the background checks, the seeking out, etc.
I like to believe that the majority of the world is really good at heart. THat those traveling to Haiti are indeed there to rescue and give aid to those who are in distress. But the reality of our fallen world is that not everyone is good at heart. I just read this article about sex trafficing and the way it increases when natural disasters occur.... I had never thought of this before. I really would encourage you to go READ THIS ARTICLE. It breaks my heart. It makes me want to jump on a plane right now to go protect those little ones. It enfuriates me. It honestly makes me shake with anger. I don't know what the logistical answer is in restoring Haiti, restoring families, restoring health and most of all, hope. God is ultimately in control, and I am just praying that he will place people in power who are able to recognize the increased threat to the children and women of Haiti. And as frustrating as it is to know that there is so much red tape that seems to be preventing GOOD from happening, I have to remember that the regulations are also preventing a mass of BAD from happening, too. This article enlightened me to a new way to pray, a specific area to lift before our father, and I pray that you will join me in lifting that up as well.
One other thought... I caught the tail end of Oprah's show yesterday, all about Haiti. One of the guys she had on there said at the very close of the show, "Haiti doesn't need any more photo ops. Haiti needs people to go get their hands dirty helping. So put down your camera and get out of the way or help." (I'm kinda paraphrasing, but you get the jist.) I couldn't agree more. We know its bad. The people are hurting. So why is it that so many reporters can get into the worst spots, but health workers and aid trucks can't?
1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
Psalm 46:1-3
We had another International Food Night with the Corrao's tonight! This time, it was Tommy and Shiny's turn. (We switch back and forth) Rahab is interning with our church this semster, so she and Shiny made some authentic Kenyan food! I'd never had it before but it was so good!! We had ugali, chipatis, stew (not sure what its called) and cabbage... oh. my. goodness. Just look at the yummy healthy deliciousness that filled my plate:
For Award shows!
A few weeks ago, The Peoples' Choice Awards kicked things off, followed by this weekend's Golden Globe awards. The Golden Globes are sort of the 'crystal ball' to the Oscars, so I'm already gearing up for some weekend-long movie theater marathons.
Starting this week, I am officially cutting my hours at work back by one day and for now, that day will be Friday... which also happens to be hubby's day off too! Yay!!! So we'll be spending Friday's at the theater between now and March! :-)
Since they will now have 10 Best Picture nominees, we have a lot of movies to watch. But then I have to ask myself if watching all the movies are really worth it, because there's so much praise for Avatar... do any other films really stand a chance against it? I'm a fan of underdog films that actually say something more than "save the planet" or "government sucks" so we'll see...
Before I share my list of must-see-before-March movies, I had a very "Oh, crap, I'm old" moment... James Cameron got up to accept his first GG win for Avatar tonight, and I just said to Sean "Man! He is looking old!" I remember when he won for "Titanic"... he had blonde hair, a gotee and looked about 15 years younger!"... ... ... ... that's when it hit me... Titanic WAS nearly 15 years ago. (13 to be exact) Oh my. my, my, my. (Here's a then and now picture:)
To be fair to Mr. Cameron... Here's a photo of me from 1997, and one from this year. (Here's a then and a now pic...)
Ok, so now on to my list of movies...
Possible Nom Must Sees:
1. Avatar
2. The Hurt Locker
3. Precious
4. Nine
5. Invictus
6. The Lovely Bones
7. Amelia
8. An Education
9. The Informant
10. The Burning Plain
11. The Boys Are Back
12. Bright Star (Only b/c some have compared Abby Cornish to Kate Winslet. Doubtful. But I'd like to see what performance begets such a suggestion!)
13. Shutter Island
14. Taking Woodstock
15. 500 Days Of Summer
Possible Noms I Could Care Less To See:
1. UP
2. Up in the Air
3. A Single Man
4. A Serious Man
5. The Road
6. Get Low
7. Broken Embraces
Possible Noms I've Already Seen:
1. Inglorious Basterds (well, I watched this bloody film with my fingers over my eyes 99% of the time...)
2. Julie & Julia
3. District 9 (I don't see how this could be nominated....)
4. Where The Wild Things Are (Quite possibly one of the WORST movies I've ever seen!)
5. Star Trek
6. Public Enemies
Quite a few of these movies have yet to even hit theatres... the rules of Oscar noms always confuse me. So I guess I'll just have to wait and see who the real nominees are when they are announced on February 2.
If you follow my 365 blog, you know that yesterday, we took some maternity photos with Hannah Gaul. It was so much fun! She knew of a beautiful spot in the foothills of Friant and we had a blast shooting with her (even if Sean and I were both pretty dorky the whole time). She made us feel so at ease and just really had fun! I would totally recommed Hannah G photography if you need any kind of pictures! You should visit her website and check out some of her other work... family portraits, friends, seniors, love, etc. Its all great! Thank-you Hannah!
Here's a few shots from yesterday....
I came across this article while reading a friend's blog... its about something called "Pregorexia." I've never heard that term before... have you? Well, the article basically talks about how some anorexics deal with being pregnant... overexercising, under eating, etc.
I have been in active eating disorder recovery (meaning no behaviors, restricting, etc) for a decade now, and I can honestly say that when I found out I was pregnant, gaining weight was the least of my worries. My dear mom asked me early on how I felt I was doing with the weight gain. My response? Great! And I really have been doing great... a feat I attribute only to the healing hand of God. Seriously. If you knew me 12 years ago, you would have said I'd never be healthy again, let alone gain weight during pregnancy without a second thought. (Trust me, I heard that from every expert, doctor, therapist, co-treatment roomate, etc.)
I've always had "issues" with my stomach... don't really know why, its the ED lying to me. But one of the things that I did to find peace with that part of my body (and other "trouble spots" I had issues with) was to think about all the positive things... like, I was thankful for my legs because they allowed me to walk. I was thankful for my arms because they allowed me to give and receive hugs. You get the picture. When it came to my tummy, my biggest body part enemy, I always focused on the fact that some day, my tummy would hold my baby. And it would grow round and beautiful and would give my child nourishment as long as I was nourishing my body. In the 10 years that have passed since then, I've remembered that, reflected on that and hoped for that... and in some really tough times, its what has kept me eating. And now the day is here for my arch nemesis to become my friend, and I LOVE IT. A strange part of me wishes I could keep my preggy belly forever. But that would be kinda weird. Espeically when I'm not pregnant any more. Hmph.
Yesterday I went for a check up with my dr. and we did the usual weigh in. Oh, the weigh-ins I've had in my days. I've been weighed blindfolded, backwards, in grams... you name it, I've been weighed in that manner. Since I'm a big girl now, I obvioulsy get to know my weight like all the 'normal' people in this world. Yesterday I was 120 and a few ounces. I have not weighed that much since the first time I got out of treatment at the Fat Farm. (Ok, Remuda wasn't a "fat farm"... just felt that way when I was eating 6 meals a day, plus tube feeding at night and gaining 45 pounds in 60 days.) Before I went in to the dr. I knew that I was probably close to that weight... and the strangest thing was that I wasn't anxious about it, but I was actually HOPING for it. Because just like my tummy growing rounder is a good sign, so is gaining weight like a 'normal' pregnant lady.
I saw a friend today who I haven't seen in a while and she said "Oh, you're still so tiny! You're barely showing at all! I hate you!" (Joking, of course.) But what she doesn't know is how badly I want to be BIGGER... I'm 27 weeks pregnant today, but only the size of most pregnant women at 16 weeks or so. I still fit in most of my pants, and sometimes when I wake up, first thing in the morning, I don't even look pregnant. I would give ANYTHING to be bigger... to gain more weight, to get round, and hey-- I totally wouldn't mind sporting a stretch mark or two. Call me crazy, but all of those things would mean that my girl was growing healthy and normal. But sadly, she's not. She's small for where she should be. She has no amniotic fluid (what actually causes most of the baby bump growth and weight gain). She's sick.
Truly, I couldn't care less about what I weigh right now. I couldn't care less about what size my pants are or the smooth condition of my skin. All I want is for our baby to continue growing, kicking and holding on until she is supposed to be born. She'll be small for her size, but we are just hoping and praying with all our might that we'll be able to hold her while she's still alive. I learned a long time ago that numbers are almost as subjective as feelings (unless they carry a $ before them) and really don't matter. At least when it comes to weight. Next number issue to tackle: age. *gulp*
:-)
I came home last night after a very tiring 10+ hour day. It was a good day, but very late and very tiring. I was so thrilled when I saw the big box on my kitchen counter and I knew right away who it was from! There is a wondeful, amazing organization called String of Pearls. It is an online organization that offers support to women who are carrying to term despite a fatal prenatal diagnosis. I have been in email contact with the founder of the organization, Laura. She offered to send me a memory kit, filled with things to help me make memories with Whitney after she is born.
There are packets of 3D gel so that we can make a 3-dimensional mold of both her hands and her feet; there's a little package of Sculpey clay for us to make hand and foot imprints; a big ceramic ornamet with paint and paintbrush for us to put her footprints and handprints on.... then we just take it to one of the pottery places and have it fired! She also sent a teeny hat for Whitney, a photo album, a journal and devotional book for me, and some wild mint tea, which will help decrease my milk supply and hopefully ease some of the physical pain that comes with that. She also gave me some great suggestions for other ways to make memories with Whitney... buy a blanket both for her and for me (I am going to keep the one my sis gave her, then Sean and I are going to get one that she can be wrapped in and that will stay with her), bring an ink pad so we can stamp her footprints in the front of our Bibles (I LOVE this idea!), and make matching mom and daughter bracelets.
Words cannot express my gratitude to Laura and her heart for women like me. Afterall, she knows how I feel better than most people, because she lost her daughter, Pearl right after she was born. She sent all of those things to me completely free of charge. Laura has also put me in contact with a woman who has lost her daughter to Triploidy... it is so rare to go this far in a pregnany with triploidy, so it has really helped to talk to someone else who has been through something similar.
You should check out her website here... String of Pearls.
I've had a crazy hectic week at work, and will be working nearly all weekend getting ready for a class I'm teaching Monday. 9th grade. High school. PUBLIC high school. Topic? Sex ed. Excited? TOTALLY. Scared? Heck yes. It's been, oh... 3 years since I've taught a sex ed class AND I'm teaching a whole new curriculum. That I wrote. Yikes. Talk about pressure. Good (or bad) news is, most the kids won't care. I just hope they remember SOMETHING!
So, I have made myself take a mental break tonight. And for me that means perusing the web for cool stuff. So I thought I'd share. :-) You're welcome. :-)
Item numero uno: Organization Envy.
Is it possible to covet someone's organizational containers? Because I am loving Centsational Girl's post on filing. *sigh* Maybe some day I will have the time, money, energy, etc to organize all my paper junk half as good as she has! Click here to see the post!
Cool Thing Number Two: Neckalce Love
I LOVE this jewelry from The Vintage Pearl. She has some beautiful hand-stamped necklaces. I especially love the Cup Of Love Necklace... I want to get one with Whitney's name on it. :-) Click here to see her website.
Sweet Site Three: Wedded Bliss
Even after being married almost 6 years, I still love to dream up weddings. And while I wouldn't mind getting married over again, I would still TOTALLY choose the same MAN to be at the end of the aisle. Style Me Pretty has so many pretty inspiration boards from all kinds of different weddings. This is eye candy galore, even for those already living in wedded bliss! I have them in my Google Reader and every day, its like a little piece of pretty in my life. :-)
Glee-fully Great Go-To Four: Glee Girl Greatness
Sorry about the alliteration, all. I just love me some matchy-matchy letters every now and then. On to this GREAT Glee-inspired blog... "What Would Emma Pillsbury Wear?" Add it to your Reader. now. (And btw, if you're not using a Blog Reader, get with the program already! So much fun!) Think Anthropologie meets Marth Stewart with OCD. This is a GREAT fashion blog... LOVE IT. Kinda makes me want to dress up for work more. (kinda.)
AND PS...
If you DO use a Google Reader and are looking for more blogs to read (you can never have too many!), you can add me! I actually have a couple blogs going right now... what can I say? I am trying to keep my mind busy these days. So you can add these....
Sean & Shey in California (that's this blog)
Shey's 365 Project (one picture a day, every day for 365 days)
Our Blog About Babygirl Whitney (some double posts from this blog, but added ones from hubby... all about our journey with our baby)
Ok, hope you have fun for the next hour or so, perusing these websites. Happy Friday! Its back to STD stats, teen pregnancy rates and condom effectiveness for me tomorrow. Hope your weekend is equally exciting!
I was at work late tonight, and feeling really pregnant today so I thought I'd take a picture and share. :-) Yesterday, I totally didn't feel or look pregnant at all. So I was happy when I woke up and my belly was tight. Luckily, these pants still fit though. :-) As I was driving home tonight, I cranked up some Garth Brooks and told Whitney about her 'roots'... how her mamma is just a country girl from Oklahoma who love Garth and Reba and would totally take her to Vegas to see Garth's new concert if I could travel. (We still plan on doing that this year... maybe! hopefully!) I told her how I love tornado season and the wide-open, hay-filled green fields that line I-44. I told her how much she would love stopping for donuts at QuikTrip every Sunday morning (and Tuesday afternoon, and Wednesday evening, and... well... anytime we were close to a QT!). I told her how much fun snow is and how cute she'd be all bundled up in a snow suit. I told her about the cows Gran and DeDad used to raise and how much fun I had as a little girl during calving season, naming every single new calf that was born. I told her how cute she'd look in little cowgirl boots and how I'm sure she'd love country music as much as I do. However, I also made sure to tell her that as much as I do love Oklahoma, the real "OSU" would always have to be THE Ohio State University and we never, ever say "Boomer Sooner" in our house. Or wear Texas orange. She was moving the whole drive home. And it was wonderful.
This past weekend at church, Matt Proctor, president of both Sean and I's alma mater (Ozark Christian College) preached a wonderful sermon on the power of a praying church. He reminded us that God delights in answering our prayers. God just loves it when we ask for something in His name and He fulfills it. And I truly believe that there is no prayer He loves to answer more than the prayers for lost souls to come to Him. Matt's message this weekend really challenged me... what are my prayers about? How big are my prayers? Are my prayers concerned with the 'bigger picture' or just the 'here and now'?
Lately, of course, my prayers have been centered around Whitney. For God to perform a miracle, to completely heal her... to somehow take away that complete extra set of chromosomes so that she can live a full, long, healthy and happy life on this earth with us. This would be a 'here and now' answer to prayer. I completely believe that my God is big enough, strong enough, and GOD enough to do this. And I know that many times, God does see fit to answer these 'here and now' prayers for earthly healing. But I also know that my prayer may not be answered in the way that I want it to be answered. God's answer to my prayers for Whitney may come in the form of a much 'bigger picture' answer. The tough thing about the 'bigger picture' answer to prayer is that we don't always see the answer right away, or perhaps even in this lifetime. When the heaviness of the day to day tasks sink in, it can be hard to cling to the big picture answers.
What are these 'big picture' answers to prayer? I think that more times than not, the 'big picture' answers to 'here and now' prayers are generally fulfilled in hearts being turned toward Christ. And as I am slowly (and ashamedly sometimes reluctantly) learning, there truly is no greater thing, no bigger answer to prayer than for another person to come to know the love of our Savior. I know that as we encounter the weeks and months ahead that we will meet many people-- doctors, nurses, etc-- who do not know Christ. If there could be any 'big picture' answer to our prayers for Whitney, it would be that because of her short life, and the hope that Sean and I and all of our friends and family have in Christ, that someone may come to know this same hope in Him. I don't know how heaven works, but how great would it be for that individual who comes to know Christ through the testimony of Whitney to get to see her again in heaven?
As my husband reminds me all the time, Whitney is going to be fine. And we are going to be fine. There is a greater day coming, when there will be no more tears, no more sorrow, no more loss and empty arms. There is a great day coming when we will all be reunited at the feet of our Father. But there are many people, so many people who have yet to discover the hope of this glorious day. So I need to be praying specifically for the people we will meet and even my some of my deareset friends who have yet to receive Christ... praying 'big picture' prayers that God will work all of this to the good of those who love Him.
So if you are wondering about a way you can pray for us, it would be that we can keep in mind the bigger picture. I'll be honest, in the day to day things we have to deal with, I often lose sight of this big picture. When I am sad and upset, the 'big picture' idea doesn't always seem to help. Colossians 4:2-6 has become a prayer of mine, and one that I would love for you to pray for us as well. Here it is:
"2Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. 3And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains.4Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. 5Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. 6Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone."
Pray that God will open doors for us to share the reason for our hope. Pray that we will have clarity of thought and mind when those opportunities do arise. Pray that in the midst of our sadness, we may still be able to proclaim the Good News of Christ. Pray that we will be full of grace in our speech and in our actions. And pray for the hearts of those that have yet to know Christ.
So I'm starting a new endeavor this year... I am joining in on the 365 Project. I've created a new blog (I know, really? Another one?) that will chronicle every day of our life this year with one photograph. I'm really looking forward to doing this... I think it will be challenging and fun, but most of all, I think it will be a great way to record the events of our life in 2010. In the end, when I am finished, I will print off the entire blog and have a book of our whole year!
New Post on Whitney's Blog...
I promise, no cursing and its totally SFW. :-)
I also did a "2008 in Pictures" (<---- CLICK THERE) and it was fun to look back on ... so I thought I'd do it again for 2009! Here it goes:
January was pretty quiet... here we are playing Settlers of Catan with our kitties on our laps!
In February, Sean went to South Korea, Japan and the Philippines. here he is with a guard on the North korean border. this guys job was to shoot you if you crossed the line.
Also in Febraury, Sean and I went to las Vegas... we had a sweet suite at the Venetian... here's Sean watching Sportscenter in the bathroom...
March I went on a ladies retreat. It was fun!
Also in March, we had South American food with Tommy and Shiny... anticuchos!
April we had another Easter with Matthew West and Jim Morris. We went to dinner after church on Saturday.
May Sean and I went to Monterey for the night. It was great!
June- I got to go home and see lots of family and friends, since my parents would soon move to Egypt. Here's me with some of my HS friends.
June, again... with Bro and Momma Suzie and Grandpa
June- we also celebrated our 5th anniversary! And of course, that means jewelry, ya know!
July was a BIG month for us! We signed our adoption papers to begin the adoption process for an infant boy from Ethiopia.
July- Mom and dad came to visit the week before Dad moved to Egypt. The drove the truck all the way out to us!
July- Kyle and Anne came to see us! We went to San Fran one day...
July- I FINALLY got a Big Fat POSITIVE! (or 3 BFPs)
August- First time we got to see our baby's heartbeat!
September- Sean went to Brazil... here he is smiling with a pirannah they caught and were about to eat
October- Fall Festival at church
October- went to see MJ's movie, THIS IS IT... RIP, Michael. *sniff sniff*
November- got to spend a long weekend with my nieces in AZ! Here's Emmalia...
November- and here is my newest niece, Kaira!!
November- we spent THanksgiving in Cincinnati, and made a visit up to THE Ohio State University!
December- Our first Christmas as a family of three!
May you have a happy and safe New Year's Eve!
In February, Sean went to South Korea, Japan and the Philippines. here he is with a guard on the North korean border. this guys job was to shoot you if you crossed the line.
Also in Febraury, Sean and I went to las Vegas... we had a sweet suite at the Venetian... here's Sean watching Sportscenter in the bathroom...
March I went on a ladies retreat. It was fun!
Also in March, we had South American food with Tommy and Shiny... anticuchos!
April we had another Easter with Matthew West and Jim Morris. We went to dinner after church on Saturday.
May Sean and I went to Monterey for the night. It was great!
June- I got to go home and see lots of family and friends, since my parents would soon move to Egypt. Here's me with some of my HS friends.
June, again... with Bro and Momma Suzie and Grandpa
June- we also celebrated our 5th anniversary! And of course, that means jewelry, ya know!
July was a BIG month for us! We signed our adoption papers to begin the adoption process for an infant boy from Ethiopia.
July- Mom and dad came to visit the week before Dad moved to Egypt. The drove the truck all the way out to us!
July- Kyle and Anne came to see us! We went to San Fran one day...
July- I FINALLY got a Big Fat POSITIVE! (or 3 BFPs)
August- First time we got to see our baby's heartbeat!
September- Sean went to Brazil... here he is smiling with a pirannah they caught and were about to eat
October- Fall Festival at church
October- went to see MJ's movie, THIS IS IT... RIP, Michael. *sniff sniff*
November- got to spend a long weekend with my nieces in AZ! Here's Emmalia...
November- and here is my newest niece, Kaira!!
November- we spent THanksgiving in Cincinnati, and made a visit up to THE Ohio State University!
December- Our first Christmas as a family of three!
May you have a happy and safe New Year's Eve!